An Introspection

I have been lately experiencing a strange phenomenon. I am becoming more of an insomniac. I don't know if this trend is really good as it increases my working hours to 22 to 23 in a day. On the retro, whenever i sleep, i sleep for more than 8 hrs at a stretch. This has thrown my food habbits too in jeopardy. Initially i wanted to keep this blog site a strict scientific and technical discussion one. On the contro, i found the visitors to be near to zero. So thought atleast will make a smal diary for myself to put forward my thoughts and ofcourse blog in any new article that sounds interesting. It was really strange that this serves to help developing english a lot. When i read my first blog, i was really amased by the amount of grammatical mistake that i have commited. Not to mention, the redundancy. I used to creat huge lines without any breaks. I am trying hard to avoid those now. If at all any one go through my blog, do leave a comment if u find my english improving from the day ...

Atlast, i have got the necessary clarity of thought. I have decided to stay with my studies and continue with my Ph.D. The clarity was achieved because of Bhagavad Gita. It is really a divine book. Your search for solution to any problem never goes unanswered. What is required is an understanding of the internal meaning and ability to apply for your problem. I dont consider myself as a great master of Bhagavad Gita. I have learnt so little from it that i am really ashamed how i could have missed reading a book which is a holy one for us. I have a copy of it commented by Swami Chidbhavananda. The english is pretty descent with clear split of every sloga with its corresponding meaning. If you get a chance to read it, do read it. I would rather say atleast buy a copy and keep it. It will come handy at some time in life.

I am now in the phase of studies which is usually considered as the hardest part. I am in a critical juncture where i have to decide if i am going to continue with my Ph.D or should i finish off with a masters. This is a nagging question that has been hampering my thinking progress for a long time. The decision taking has become so hard because of expectations from others and also to a certain extent my self-ego. I have never considered myself a failure in any phase of my life but now after 25 years for the first time i am beginning to feel the fear of failure. The experience that i have in the scientific field is too specialised but also too short to land a job in a reputed organization which will be able to appreciate my skills aquired.  Combined with all these is the pressure from the professor to show results, which i dont have because of experimental failures. Hope i will be able to get myself out of this dilemma soon enough and become  clear with my objectives.

Hmm....I should really accept the fact that i am a lazy person. Have not been able to put up a blog article for a long time now. Thought today would discuss something about fuzzy logic. This has become the buzz word now-a-days. Every household electrical goods seems to have used fuzzy logic. what big difference this creates when considering the binary world? It makes systems more realistic. Binary systems are either true or false. The degree of truth or the false is not known. This creates anamolies in systems. The simplest form of the fuzzy logic would be antecedant-implication relationship. For example, if you have two different parameters that occur at the same time and have different implications on the systems or decision criteria, then a relationship needs to be generated that could enumerate the exact effect of the parameters under consideration. I would not go any further on this discussion as the fuzzy logic concept is too deep to be analyzed in a simple blog like this.

Hmm....What can write about this time??? Thought of putting down what i did today but realized it would be of no use for someone browsing to know about it. Finally decided to write about effects of vibration.  An interesting field of study. Do you know what a 10g acceleration can do to u?? You cannot imagine what would happen as we dont usually experience such high level of acceleration. A stealth could experience upto 5g when it is having a high mach number. But usually the pilots are guarded from such high levels by dampers. You might be wondering why an electronics person is talking about a mechanical phenomenon. I had the opportunity of simulating these high level vibration conditions ( simulation in the sense - real world creation of the environment that would be experienced by the launch vehicles during and after launch). The testing is usually done using Vibartion shaker which is capable of producing 2 tonnes of force. The usual vibration is for qualifying the space vehicle inte...