Dilemma

I am now in the phase of studies which is usually considered as the hardest part. I am in a critical juncture where i have to decide if i am going to continue with my Ph.D or should i finish off with a masters. This is a nagging question that has been hampering my thinking progress for a long time. The decision taking has become so hard because of expectations from others and also to a certain extent my self-ego. I have never considered myself a failure in any phase of my life but now after 25 years for the first time i am beginning to feel the fear of failure.

The experience that i have in the scientific field is too specialised but also too short to land a job in a reputed organization which will be able to appreciate my skills aquired.  Combined with all these is the pressure from the professor to show results, which i dont have because of experimental failures.

Hope i will be able to get myself out of this dilemma soon enough and become  clear with my objectives.

Comments

Vigneshwar Ramakrishnan said…
Seems like this is a universal fear for all grad students! :-)
October 1, 2007 at 1:49 AM
Balaji P G said…
It usually happens and midway is the most insecure period in life i suppose
October 1, 2007 at 1:50 AM
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